God's Promises

How do you get through? If you know it to be a promise from GOD, why is it so hard to get through? Each Godspot in my life makes me wonder how I got through even with God carrying me. I love the FOOTPRINTS in the SAND poem. I still wonder how I got through and I know GOD was there and continues to be with me now. I think about all I have been through and I wonder is that all there is at the end of the day. Just living through or getting stronger and more faithful as you go? I know each time I am carried I am closer to GOD at that moment, but do I pull away once the crisis is over? Once the interruption is over, do I leave His side to carry on without Him. I feel like at times I am on a roller coaster that never stops running. Good times and bad, Happy times and sad and it is just on going. I want to stop it, but it never stops it just continues on. One good decision, one bad. One great moment, one really bad one. And I want more. I seek more out of this life. I don't need to be happy every minute of everyday, but I want to feel GOD's constant presence. I don't want to leave Him and I definitely don't want to feel that He leaves my side.