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Thursday, April 8, 2010

BABY FEVER

I am going through baby fever once again. MaryAlice starts kindergarten in August and I find my self searching every adoption website. It has gotten more intense as I get all of Mary's paperwork together for kindergarten. Since about a year after we brought her home I have wanted to adopt again, but it just seems more intense now. Mark is not at all having any type of baby fever. Like not at all. How we are always in different directions with this I don't know. I just know in my heart that I want another baby and I am not sure where that is going to take me. I know that we will never go back to China because of different things, but mainly because I feel GOD wants us to go somewhere else. At first I thought it might be NEPAL, then I thought maybe South America, but now I am getting a feeling that we are destined to go to Africa. I just feel Ethiopia in my heart right now. I can't explain why, but I am just drawn there. I am not sure if its a girl or a boy, but I do feel like Ethiopia is our place. I am confused by all of this because I have no clue how we would even attempt to pay for it or how we would manage it with school expenses and all of that. I just am drawn to Ethiopia and I am not sure why. Months ago I felt drawn to the Philippines and then India once again, but now I am just drawn to Africa. I am going to read some books about Africa and see where it takes me. I know that there are millions of orphaned children there due to AIDS/poverty/etc. I know that children are abandoned daily there and they need parents just like the orphans of all nations. I am praying that the LORD will get us through this and if I am wrong about another adoption, He will get me through my baby fever once again. I want another toddler in the house and I am hoping Mark will come around and our finances will too. I know GOD has a plan and I'm praying He will guide us to do His will.