I am the worlds worst mother!

Every now and then, my oldest daughter likes to remind me that she has never been to Disney World. I am always excited to here how she is 10.5 and she has never been but everyone in her class has been to Disney World. Mark and I have looked into it several times and it is really expensive. And our girls don't like amusement park rides. And we chose 6 years ago to sacrifice ourselves so we could send our girls to private school. It would cost one child's tuition for a year to take our family to Disney World. I told our oldest that we love her and her sister and we have taken them on great vacations, and we took a trip to CHINA. NO ONE in her class has ever been to CHINA, but she never brings that up. I finally told her that all of the money that has been spent on Disney Vacations in her classroom could probably feed 10,000 starving African children for over a month and possibly longer. Disney World is not the reality that I know of the world. It is a fantasy. Why would I want to spend the money to go to a fake China in Disney World when I have been to the real one. I just don't think I am going to change my mind about this. Parents have asked me,"Why don't you take the girls to Disney World?" Honest answer, "We can't afford to spend that much money on any vacation." And the whole time I would be thinking about how far that money would go in any orphanage program around the world. I would think of how it could pay for one installment in an adoption. I just can't forget what I know. "I am forever changed." I just can't erase the scars on my heart. The experience of what I have seen with my own eyes, what I have read about in other parts of the world, and what I know to be reality. No, I can't save them all, but I don't want to feel guilty about spending money unnecessarily for a short good time. I can't explain to my sweet girl that reality is harsh and it does not involve Disney World. The real world involves homelessness, starvation, and endless poverty. If you have ever read about the real world, your world will not be the same. We sacrifice for our girls in many ways, but I just can't bring myself to sacrifice for this when a charity somewhere could use that money to feed hungry babies. I am the world's worst mother!